The Reasons

We are in two different places and two different head spaces so that's why I need to stay away from you I love you but I have to keep my distance Because I forget who I am when you are in my presence. I seem to forgot our rough past and dream about how we could be I thought couldn't live without you, couldn't breath without you when you walked away from us but reality reminded me that it's your loss so just let it be. Learning to function without you has been one of the hardest things I've had to do but it needed to be done so I had to make do Wondering if our love has truly died or is sleeping like snow White longing to be awakened by your sweet kiss but these things I can't sit around and wait for because that kiss may never come and I don't know what the world has in store for me, so why sit around waiting for you to decide to love me? Why should I let you Control my destiny? When any fool with eyes could see that it gets no better than me. There is someone out there waiting for me to be everything they desire and more, No need to explain what's behind our closed door. I can walk away with my head held high because I gave all I could and everything in life deserves a try.

Making love to the rain

You make me wet inside and out Caressing my skin with each and every drop You make it worth it to get caught up in you, cleansing my soul as you do what you do. Giving me your purest form of affection and the pleasure of your erection simply takes my breath away. You know the right things to say and which parts of my body need your touch the most. You pull me in close and never let me go. I hate to see the sunshine because that means you have to go but when I see the clouds gather, I'll be ready for you with my raincoat on.

Time for Goodbyes

I miss the strong aroma of your cologne on my bed sheets and the time you spent invading my dreams and I wouldn't be asleep
I miss tugging on your beard while you laid next to me and your sweet kisses trailing from the back of my neck to the top of my feet
I miss sitting in your lap watching you play call of duty and you making dinner whatever I was hungry
I miss the old you and our old things but times change and all I have is sweet memories of the man that I thought I loved and our history. Chemistry feels right but it didn't make you happy. I was holding you back from what you were yearning for and I was to busy wanting more of your love because that's what I thought I needed but looking back it was only feelings that I thought were real. A comfort zone leading to no mansland and love that was only one sided.  I've learned from my mistakes and I've learned from you. Not every man is man enough to make your dreams come true and just because you love someone doesn't mean they are right for you. But I thank God for you because if we never happened, discovering reality wouldn't have been so fulfilling. Time to embark on a new journey with a clear mind and a reunited spirit
Thank you for everything, you were just what I needed

Shower Scene

One shower head Two bodies The perfect combination for love making The hot water and steam contributes to the dirty things we do to one another Starts off innocently enough until you start rubbing up against my butt with what I know isn't a bar of soap Whispering in my ear to let you have it and don't be scared girl just grab it You get to kissing on my spot and you are trying to mess up my clean body but I don't want you to stop Picking me up and pressing me against the wall, I'm praying to God we don't slip and fall High off passion as we look into each other's eyes, with each stroke my love dripping down your thighs Knocking over body wash and getting into it, why are you worried about my hair getting wet? I don't have any. When your moans match mine and I get to shaking at the same time, I know we've completed the task at hand. Give me 30 minutes rest and we can do it again

Boxer Briefs

It's something about a man wearing this one thing that drives my little behind insane. Next to nothing but still enough mystery for my mind to wonder whatcha working with. Nothing but a tease but it doesn't bother me because I'll take down anything that tempts me. I can't resist the deliciousness of a chocolate man in greatest gift to all of woman's kind and my perverted mind wanting to touch and kiss every part of his canvas, talmbout ready to sit on his lap and enlarge that imprint, give him the time of his life if he can handle it. I don't mean to be mannish but baby can I have it, I mean do you mind if I undress you from your suit and tie and let me vibe? Well I needs to know Can I? Just know don't come around me just wearing the that one thing that drives me crazy

Lovers Anonymous Meeting

Hi my name is Tarolyn and I'm recovering I've been addicted to love for over 5 years and this drug abuse is killing me I can't sleep, won't eat, and neglecting my friends and family that need me I know it's wrong but it feels so right to be high off what's my kryptonite but it's time to let it go and start a new So that's why I'm here to spill my guts you. I've given my money, time, hell I would have gave my life for my doses of love in my life. I had to be dumb to believe that this was going to workout for me but I become hopelessly optimistic when it comes to the things I need or what I feel like I need. But I've discovered that I can survive without it and I'll be fine. It's been a long hard 3 weeks but I stand here and say I'm clean. I've come close to relapsing but God is in control of every and has kept me close to Him. This is just the beginning of my journey and a long road ahead but I'm grateful for a fresh start and that I'm not dead

Growing Up

I'm evolving into my rare form and it is scaring me But there is a blessing in transformation that I've come to see Shedding the old and outdated things about yourself that are unnecessary You start living, like hard core living and your dreams are birthed in the world daily and you can't remember the last time a nightmare kept you up at night The type of living that you thought couldn't exist after you lost the one thing you thought you couldn't live without. Now you are better off without it and life after a loss is so much more worth it I look in the mirror and it blows my mind that the reflection looking back at me is mine. I'm coming into my own and feels so right and I am still in shock that this is my life. The beauty of it all is that the key has always been within me because I am the creator of my own destiny

ByeBye Baby

I had a moment today that I've been avoiding for a while, Reality has set in and I see the truth now
There is no longer a we .........
Better yet I don't think there ever was a we, it was just a you enjoying things with me.
Now that I reflect on it, I feel so small because I truly cared for you from the bottom of my heart and soul; and you dropped me faster than a hot potato and walked away like there was nothing else to be said,
I gave to you what I felt you needed but in the end I was mistreated because I spoiled you and forgot about me.
And that's how the end of our story came to be.
I was to much of a coward to ask you to be the man that I needed you to be, I was scared of pushing you away but in the end you walked away from me,
leaving a bruise hearted woman to pick up the pieces of her pride.
I let my guard down for you, like I didn't know any better
A familiar feeling that I always hated
Being abandoned by the man I thought I needed
Staining my pillows with tears from the years of love I thought was fareal
The feeling of being mistreated and letting being optimistic blur my 20/20 vision because I saw pass your selfish ways because I was willing to give up all my me's for we's but it was only me down for team us apparently. I just thank God I can walk away with my dignity because I know in my heart I gave you the best of me. I hope you find everything that  you are out searching for because you gave up on the one woman who wanted nothing more than to see your smile everyday for the rest of your life, a woman who wanted to be your wife and give life to your hopes and dreams from her womb, and give you the world just because she loves you. As I walk away there is no see you later or see ya next time, a permanent ending is more suitable ....... Goodbye

Wake Up

Sometimes I can't believe my eyes, because knowing where  our people have come from, this foolishness comes as surprise! We absorb this bullshit that today's society provides to ruin our minds and kill our legacy. We are descendents of the earth's first Kings and Queens, royal family, and high society.  Don't you see they are pumping poison into our vains, brainwashing our youth, and incarcerating our men so that we don't go back to the proper state of mind we were born in. Ripped from the arms of our motherland Africa, we were beaten and abused, built the greatest nation upon our backs but we get no recognition in the history books. They chose the strongest of people of the world to build a dream that they dreamt for themselves but forgot to acknowledge us and remolded our souls. Telling us we should be grateful that they saved us from a barbaric life we faced ..........
I wish people would open up their eyes and see that we are still in a form of slavery but we are allowing it to be. Where the black family is becoming a fact of history because black men and women are chasing the wrong things. Money, cars, and clothes are what's rotting our soul. Statistics in America shows that black single mothers are on the rise and our young boys and men are being incarcerated by the hour. We are steadily losing the morals and standards that ancestors passed down to us but we are all cool with that quick nut until the sperm connects with the egg and a baby developed. All of a sudden responsibility is out the window and another fatherless home is created with a bitter mama bashing men left and right trying to teach a boy to be a man but how can that be? Just because you come from a man doesn't mean you know how to teach a boy to be a man. Women were created from the side of a man to compliment him, build him up, and make their lives together better.  His Queen, his soul mate, his everything but we can't see pass the lustful clouds jading our eyes from the prize of properly replenishing our kingdom of African decent. Our people are forgetting what our family values stand for. Taking pride in being a member of the baby mama and baby daddy club! What happened to taking pride in your our family units?Soon the future generations will have to refer to The Cosby show to know what a strong black family is. What's wrong with uniting with one another and starting a family the right way. We have got to do better before it's to late. I don't want to stuffed, puffed, and plastered in a museum and historians refer to our people as the existent race