26 May 2013

Lovers Anonymous Meeting

Hi my name is Tarolyn and I'm recovering I've been addicted to love for over 5 years and this drug abuse is killing me I can't sleep, won't eat, and neglecting my friends and family that need me I know it's wrong but it feels so right to be high off what's my kryptonite but it's time to let it go and start a new So that's why I'm here to spill my guts you. I've given my money, time, hell I would have gave my life for my doses of love in my life. I had to be dumb to believe that this was going to workout for me but I become hopelessly optimistic when it comes to the things I need or what I feel like I need. But I've discovered that I can survive without it and I'll be fine. It's been a long hard 3 weeks but I stand here and say I'm clean. I've come close to relapsing but God is in control of every and has kept me close to Him. This is just the beginning of my journey and a long road ahead but I'm grateful for a fresh start and that I'm not dead

Growing Up

I'm evolving into my rare form and it is scaring me But there is a blessing in transformation that I've come to see Shedding the old and outdated things about yourself that are unnecessary You start living, like hard core living and your dreams are birthed in the world daily and you can't remember the last time a nightmare kept you up at night The type of living that you thought couldn't exist after you lost the one thing you thought you couldn't live without. Now you are better off without it and life after a loss is so much more worth it I look in the mirror and it blows my mind that the reflection looking back at me is mine. I'm coming into my own and feels so right and I am still in shock that this is my life. The beauty of it all is that the key has always been within me because I am the creator of my own destiny