13 December 2013
02 December 2013
17 September 2013
04 July 2013
03 July 2013
I miss the strong aroma of your cologne on my bed sheets and the time you spent invading my dreams and I wouldn't be asleep
I miss tugging on your beard while you laid next to me and your sweet kisses trailing from the back of my neck to the top of my feet
I miss sitting in your lap watching you play call of duty and you making dinner whatever I was hungry
I miss the old you and our old things but times change and all I have is sweet memories of the man that I thought I loved and our history. Chemistry feels right but it didn't make you happy. I was holding you back from what you were yearning for and I was to busy wanting more of your love because that's what I thought I needed but looking back it was only feelings that I thought were real. A comfort zone leading to no mansland and love that was only one sided. I've learned from my mistakes and I've learned from you. Not every man is man enough to make your dreams come true and just because you love someone doesn't mean they are right for you. But I thank God for you because if we never happened, discovering reality wouldn't have been so fulfilling. Time to embark on a new journey with a clear mind and a reunited spirit
Thank you for everything, you were just what I needed
14 June 2013
13 June 2013
It's something about a man wearing this one thing that drives my little behind insane. Next to nothing but still enough mystery for my mind to wonder whatcha working with. Nothing but a tease but it doesn't bother me because I'll take down anything that tempts me. I can't resist the deliciousness of a chocolate man in greatest gift to all of woman's kind and my perverted mind wanting to touch and kiss every part of his canvas, talmbout ready to sit on his lap and enlarge that imprint, give him the time of his life if he can handle it. I don't mean to be mannish but baby can I have it, I mean do you mind if I undress you from your suit and tie and let me vibe? Well I needs to know Can I? Just know don't come around me just wearing the that one thing that drives me crazy
26 May 2013
Hi my name is Tarolyn and I'm recovering I've been addicted to love for over 5 years and this drug abuse is killing me I can't sleep, won't eat, and neglecting my friends and family that need me I know it's wrong but it feels so right to be high off what's my kryptonite but it's time to let it go and start a new So that's why I'm here to spill my guts you. I've given my money, time, hell I would have gave my life for my doses of love in my life. I had to be dumb to believe that this was going to workout for me but I become hopelessly optimistic when it comes to the things I need or what I feel like I need. But I've discovered that I can survive without it and I'll be fine. It's been a long hard 3 weeks but I stand here and say I'm clean. I've come close to relapsing but God is in control of every and has kept me close to Him. This is just the beginning of my journey and a long road ahead but I'm grateful for a fresh start and that I'm not dead
I'm evolving into my rare form and it is scaring me But there is a blessing in transformation that I've come to see Shedding the old and outdated things about yourself that are unnecessary You start living, like hard core living and your dreams are birthed in the world daily and you can't remember the last time a nightmare kept you up at night The type of living that you thought couldn't exist after you lost the one thing you thought you couldn't live without. Now you are better off without it and life after a loss is so much more worth it I look in the mirror and it blows my mind that the reflection looking back at me is mine. I'm coming into my own and feels so right and I am still in shock that this is my life. The beauty of it all is that the key has always been within me because I am the creator of my own destiny
23 May 2013
I had a moment today that I've been avoiding for a while, Reality has set in and I see the truth now
There is no longer a we .........
Better yet I don't think there ever was a we, it was just a you enjoying things with me.
Now that I reflect on it, I feel so small because I truly cared for you from the bottom of my heart and soul; and you dropped me faster than a hot potato and walked away like there was nothing else to be said,
I gave to you what I felt you needed but in the end I was mistreated because I spoiled you and forgot about me.
And that's how the end of our story came to be.
I was to much of a coward to ask you to be the man that I needed you to be, I was scared of pushing you away but in the end you walked away from me,
leaving a bruise hearted woman to pick up the pieces of her pride.
I let my guard down for you, like I didn't know any better
A familiar feeling that I always hated
Being abandoned by the man I thought I needed
Staining my pillows with tears from the years of love I thought was fareal
The feeling of being mistreated and letting being optimistic blur my 20/20 vision because I saw pass your selfish ways because I was willing to give up all my me's for we's but it was only me down for team us apparently. I just thank God I can walk away with my dignity because I know in my heart I gave you the best of me. I hope you find everything that you are out searching for because you gave up on the one woman who wanted nothing more than to see your smile everyday for the rest of your life, a woman who wanted to be your wife and give life to your hopes and dreams from her womb, and give you the world just because she loves you. As I walk away there is no see you later or see ya next time, a permanent ending is more suitable ....... Goodbye
Sometimes I can't believe my eyes, because knowing where our people have come from, this foolishness comes as surprise! We absorb this bullshit that today's society provides to ruin our minds and kill our legacy. We are descendents of the earth's first Kings and Queens, royal family, and high society. Don't you see they are pumping poison into our vains, brainwashing our youth, and incarcerating our men so that we don't go back to the proper state of mind we were born in. Ripped from the arms of our motherland Africa, we were beaten and abused, built the greatest nation upon our backs but we get no recognition in the history books. They chose the strongest of people of the world to build a dream that they dreamt for themselves but forgot to acknowledge us and remolded our souls. Telling us we should be grateful that they saved us from a barbaric life we faced ..........
I wish people would open up their eyes and see that we are still in a form of slavery but we are allowing it to be. Where the black family is becoming a fact of history because black men and women are chasing the wrong things. Money, cars, and clothes are what's rotting our soul. Statistics in America shows that black single mothers are on the rise and our young boys and men are being incarcerated by the hour. We are steadily losing the morals and standards that ancestors passed down to us but we are all cool with that quick nut until the sperm connects with the egg and a baby developed. All of a sudden responsibility is out the window and another fatherless home is created with a bitter mama bashing men left and right trying to teach a boy to be a man but how can that be? Just because you come from a man doesn't mean you know how to teach a boy to be a man. Women were created from the side of a man to compliment him, build him up, and make their lives together better. His Queen, his soul mate, his everything but we can't see pass the lustful clouds jading our eyes from the prize of properly replenishing our kingdom of African decent. Our people are forgetting what our family values stand for. Taking pride in being a member of the baby mama and baby daddy club! What happened to taking pride in your our family units?Soon the future generations will have to refer to The Cosby show to know what a strong black family is. What's wrong with uniting with one another and starting a family the right way. We have got to do better before it's to late. I don't want to stuffed, puffed, and plastered in a museum and historians refer to our people as the existent race
22 May 2013
Chocolate Adonis of my dreams that keeps me from sleeping
Every time I close my eyes you appear and take control of me.
I try to fight sleep but you keep calling me
Demanding me to stop running and face this ecstasy
I know it's a dream but it feels like the real thing
Because I wake up sweating and my inner thighs are sticky
Each and every time you seduce me with your eyes, melt me with your touch, and intrigue me with your love
You have your way with me there so I know I can't handle you in actuality
With your great physique in my face and you wrapping my legs around your waist
Telling me the things I need to get me there
Tears of joy and the pain of pleasure
It's always one hell of a dream or my overly active imagination
02 March 2013
If you chose to love me, love me for all the right reasons, Forgive me of my flaws and never try to get even. Hold me close every night and let my body come into your God made me from your rib, so we are one.
See my beauty through my tears because I might forget, Remind me of why life is worth living with you in it.
Bring change into my life but only for the better, When the storm gets ugly outside, I need to know can you stand the weather?
Time heals all wounds but I rather my time being spent on you than dwelling on the past that cannot be renewed.
When you kiss me, connect your soul with mine and let my love fall down on you each and every time. Hope with me when the darkest part of the night comes, Rub my aching body when the pain becomes unbearable, Look me in my eyes and see where I am coming from.
Walk with me on this journey and never leave my side, Don't let the pride of your mind be the dictator of the love of your heart.
Let your passion conquer all and I vow to stay true, Because the honest answer of it all is that I love you too.
He proudly states claim to the fact that my backside has thickened up. That my rump got plump after he started applying his love.
Applied pressure creates diamonds and his prized discovery is the diamond that giggles behind me. Not to firm but far from sloppy, he tells me the I'm lucky that I got him because women outchea paying for what he blessed me with.
Tiny frame but with plenty curves, he made mountains out of mole hills with the juice he possess. That get thick quick serum, that spreads you right and keeps you up all night.
The formula to success is proper amount of dick and plenty of rest annd the booty of your dreams will show itself.
19 January 2013
We become one as you enter my flesh
Breathing the breath of life in unison
Exhibiting the passion that cannot be explained with words but can be comprehended just the same
The pain of love is needed in order to appreciate the tears of joy that follow
Every smooth connection of intimacy
The pure ecstasy that makes you high before the world knew what a molly was
The whispers in the ear to awaken the soul, the human mating call
To the sweet kisses of each and every moment that turn into long love making sessions
Let us be great in our time and space, why fight what Physics and Chemistry cannot explain because the natural life cycle of our eternal life is already written