13 September 2016

It's about that TIME

I've been curious for years about what could be between you and I, All we ever needed was time and opportunity
You planted a seed deep inside of me,watering and nurturing me to see what could be
Watching it grow slowly but surely over the many years of our friendship
Now I'm ready for the pruning process to maximize what has developed so that it can be the best
It's always been something or someone that caused the inability for us to push the envelope
But now we can have fun, now we can have our moment in the Sun
No longer watching one another from afar, loving one another but can't love one another.
We are working on that HomieLoverFriend and I'm all in because I'm willing to try with you
No apprehensive feelings, all freedom to love and be loved
To enjoy the beauty of the process to be intimate with you
All we ever wanted was a chance to make some plans and now we can with no limits
The Most High mad no mistakes and I'm grateful for the wait because it is definitely well worth it

On my shit

I'm over zealous with my methods
But on my Creator I can't help it
It comes so naturally that I move through this realm so freely
I am a Queen and that shouldn't be taken lightly
I go after whatever I want because I have to have it
I am my only limitation and I'll never let myself down
You may try but you'll never take my crown
My world is perfectly imperfect
It's beauty in everything
I'm riding this life, enjoying every bump and every curve, every dip and every swerve
No hands while I ride because their is strength in my lowers
I am the key to bringing you into my light Don't you understand?
I am over the top and demanding your best
My mother created a God so I expect nothing less
I don't care if you are sick of me You can't bring me down I'm on a natural high
If you don't like it, that's to bad for you
I'm going to keep being great because that's what I do


The Mentality of A Woman in Love

I can't even lie I settled for him
It was comfortable and stable,
I thought I that I was happy with conforming
Submission to a man that was not yet ready
Keeping me around because he didn't want another man to have me
Allowing him to figure out his life so selfishly
As I sat a waited so selflessly
Praying for him to find what he was looking for, hoping his answer was in me Compromising and changing my everything
Begging for a complete love in return for the love I was giving
Taking in his ridicule and negative energy Tearing up myself spiritually I'd fallen weak to this type of love over and over again
Thinking that love all I really needed
I don't really need support and appreciation
Encouragement through my own struggles and pushing me to go after my own dreams
All I ever wanted was to be accepted by the one I love even if it meant losing myself
I had to have him and no one else
It hurts to love someone who is more focused on themselves
I had to break free I was breaking apart daily It was no way to live, a so called happy
For him to try pull me back into the cycle You know I love you girl, I want you to be my wife eventually, be the mother of my children and be my everything
But a brother needs more time, I don't much more time but I need that from you. I gotta be sure of my feelings for you but I need your sexual healing and your counsel too.
If you leave I'll never forgive you, you'll regret every second that I'm not in your world girl
He tries but I run as fast as I can to look back to see that he wasn't even chasing me
Wasn't willing to compromise or change for me
Let me go as if it was nothing
I'm in full stride with tears burning my eyes because I know the answer
But I allowed him to have 2 years of my life ......... Love is beautiful a thing when done right but love isn't the only thing you need to survive


12 September 2016

The Beautiful Struggle

The fight with the flesh is a daily battle
It's not just about the sacred act but struggle with the ego
It never seems to quit
The right side of your body never gives up so easily
You feel yourself losing control of self and you have to regain your position
The learned behavior wins again
No one desires to feel weak or inadequate But then who determines the standards of weakness and inadequacy in our society? Do we take those standards of judgment against ourselves;
Superior spiritual beings forcing self to fit a mold that was designed to benefit a man that does not have access to the Most High, a man whose heart desires to steal kill and destroy our people because He hate us because ain't us.
He wants his here on earth because this is all he'll ever have. The true battle is deep within. We've been pumped with harmful chemicals for a century, vaccinations killing the nation.
The killing of the mind and forced state the lowers is the way they intended us to be
But when you get out of line and breathe deep it's a controversy You are in battle with self but in a war to survive It's a vicious cycle but it's easier to go the way of world than to break free
So do we do what comes easily and accept a level of success that's determined by a society can't grasp the power that we harness or do you allow yourself to take the journey of the freeing of the mind and soul that comes so naturally
Are you scared to become the sacred being that you are designed to be, letting go of the ways of the world and being more than a human being
It's never easy but it's all apart of the process
I'm finally wiping away the mucus that was holding me back from the true "Success"
It's getting back to basics and listening to one's self


07 February 2016

I want to be RIGHT

I want to be right for you
I want to do right by you
I need to be at my purest
because it is what I am designed to do
My ability to exist in my proper form is my goal
Solely for the joining of our souls to become one
To exist in a realm that was designated for us
That was assigned to us to build our dynasty To fall in line with our destiny
I can't be what you need me to be if I am not right with thyself
Find the strength that I need inside of me I have the ability to conquer anything because I have the key to victory inside of me
There is no other way around the truth The more that I embrace it
The more I see it, the more I feel it
No need in fighting what I am suppose to do
Cleanse myself of all impurities
Focus my energy on being complete because I need to be what you need me to be
The queen of your lineage The creature of your legacy
What you have been praying for
What you have been longing for your entire life
What makes sense in a world of nonsense
I am the key to success
I am YOUR key to success It is my life's work to be at highest form of purity Because greatness can not be born into a vessel that is unfit for a KING.


28 November 2015

Forget my number

I thought I was over you until I saw a photo, a photo of you claiming her as your property. Having the pride of her being your own glaring from your eyes, the pride that you never had for me. It doesn't hurt as much as it shocked me to see that you actually claim another human being. I always thought you'd wait for me or I thought you wanted to wait for me, with your random calls in the middle of my life to "check on" me, acting so friendly. I just found it very funny that you committed to the girl that was suppose to be a nobody to you. But you can't help but to call me for a life update on me whenever you need my energy But you her sitting next to you like your Queen to be Seems like everyone knew but me I leave the country and you decided to grow up on me. Stirring up emotions that I thought left out of me years ago Having me feeling a tad bit crazy but that's the life you chose after me, which is fine but please don't contact me on my hotline TCG

What do you want me to do?

I hated when you went missing on me, felt like our love was disconnected because you spent your portion of the bill money on more important things than the woman who you wanted to be your wife. Felt as if i was a nuisance instead of a prize because when I looked into your eyes, I saw something that I thought I'd never see ......... You giving up on me, giving up on us because we hit a rough patch in our love. You thought everything was going to be sunny days of pure bliss, but in reality that's all a myth. Real love takes hard work and sacrifice, crazy fights, and long nights of arguing but early mornings of making love until everything is right. I let you walk away because, I wanted you to be free and happy, even if that meant you weren't with me. I saw you switching up on me, changing phone lock codes on me, looking over your shoulder when you texting, finding any little reason to leave the house if we had a disagreement. Changes in our spiritual connection, I felt you steadily pulling away from me, lying to my face, pretending that everything was gravy. Stopped answering my calls, hitting me back with a text message. You abandoned us because times got hard, you walked away and left your key, Now you expect me to be all happy because you realized that what's in those streets isn't better than me. You want me to be the bigger person because you were blind that a real woman was in your life wanting to give you an eternity is happiness and beautiful babies? You want me to try again because you realized you need me? Wanting me to practice forgiveness, when this could have been our dynasty. TCG

A letter to my King (My Husband to be)

I hope this reaches you, wherever that you may be. My sole purpose in life is to make you happy. I dream of you and how things would be if we shared our lives for an eternity. Would you laugh at my corny jokes and understand my silly ways; would you caress my natural after a long trying day. I wonder if my mood swings and attitude will push you away or would handle any curve ball I throw your way? Know that I am constantly changing, God is purging me for our destiny, shaping me for the the better, preparing me for the latter, crafting me to be your wife. I will encourage you to be the very best you when times get hard; be by your side for support when you need assistance walking on our journey, pick you up if you ever should stumble or fall. I have been called to be yours and I take pride in that. Until our two pathes meet, until our hearts align and our souls are complete, I'll be waiting for you patiently; growing and learning to be what you need me to be. TCG

22 November 2015

All work and All play

When we are out in public, I'm presentable and classy, but when I get home I love to make it nasty. Text messages and phone calls through out the day turns into sexting and video messages because you want to see what color panties I wore to work that day. Lunch time visits, smiling and greeting everyone in my building but soon as we reach my office, you shut the door and close the blinds and I already know it's go time. Eating my pussy out on my desk, ripping the buttons on my blouse so you can have access to my breast when you slide deep inside, covering my mouth with the other hand to muffle the sounds. Get me all cleaned up once once you cum; Grabbing me a new blouse out of my wardrobe because this is normal for our lunch dates. Whispering to me there is more where that came from later as I walk you to the evaluator. Texting me the address for with dinner with your boss at 8 and I glady agree because I have some tricks up my sleeve. Dinner with your boss and colleagues, I showed up dressed so elegantly but sexy enough to drive you crazy. You can't stop squeezing my ass as I sit by your side at the table, texting me your ass looks like a ripe Georgia peach in this outfit and I'm planning to eat. I text back, check your blazer pocket if you dare. I wore my vibrating panties and i slipped the wireless remote is in there. Turn it on and watch me not break as sweat, I bet you won't do it unless you are that freaky. Your boss thinks we are such love birds as we kiss and whisper in each other's ears, little does he know I'm cumming and telling you the things I'm doing to you once we get to the car, I whisper baby I'm about to be your porn star as soon as you get the check ......... You tell your boss we have to get going, it's getting late and I have a early day in the morning, all lies because you want me to swallow your dick as soon as possible. You pay the tab and grab our coats, because you have cover my ass because it's soaked. The valet barely pulls the car around and we are standing out front, tonguing each other down. Soon as you get in the car, I pull your dick out so that I can taste my dessert before we make it home. Struggling to open the door to the house because you are already got the head inside. Fuck the door, we can get it on the patio so the neighbors can see how to keep your man happy.