The Beautiful Struggle

The fight with the flesh is a daily battle
It's not just about the sacred act but struggle with the ego
It never seems to quit
The right side of your body never gives up so easily
You feel yourself losing control of self and you have to regain your position
The learned behavior wins again
No one desires to feel weak or inadequate But then who determines the standards of weakness and inadequacy in our society? Do we take those standards of judgment against ourselves;
Superior spiritual beings forcing self to fit a mold that was designed to benefit a man that does not have access to the Most High, a man whose heart desires to steal kill and destroy our people because He hate us because ain't us.
He wants his here on earth because this is all he'll ever have. The true battle is deep within. We've been pumped with harmful chemicals for a century, vaccinations killing the nation.
The killing of the mind and forced state the lowers is the way they intended us to be
But when you get out of line and breathe deep it's a controversy You are in battle with self but in a war to survive It's a vicious cycle but it's easier to go the way of world than to break free
So do we do what comes easily and accept a level of success that's determined by a society can't grasp the power that we harness or do you allow yourself to take the journey of the freeing of the mind and soul that comes so naturally
Are you scared to become the sacred being that you are designed to be, letting go of the ways of the world and being more than a human being
It's never easy but it's all apart of the process
I'm finally wiping away the mucus that was holding me back from the true "Success"
It's getting back to basics and listening to one's self

TCG

I want to be RIGHT

I want to be right for you
I want to do right by you
I need to be at my purest
because it is what I am designed to do
My ability to exist in my proper form is my goal
Solely for the joining of our souls to become one
To exist in a realm that was designated for us
That was assigned to us to build our dynasty To fall in line with our destiny
I. WANT. TO. BE. RIGHT. FOR. YOU.
I can't be what you need me to be if I am not right with thyself
Find the strength that I need inside of me I have the ability to conquer anything because I have the key to victory inside of me
I. HAVE. TO. BE. RIGHT. FOR. YOU.
There is no other way around the truth The more that I embrace it
The more I see it, the more I feel it
No need in fighting what I am suppose to do
Cleanse myself of all impurities
Focus my energy on being complete because I need to be what you need me to be
The queen of your lineage The creature of your legacy
I. AM. WHAT. YOU. NEED.
What you have been praying for
What you have been longing for your entire life
What makes sense in a world of nonsense
I am the key to success
I am YOUR key to success It is my life's work to be at highest form of purity Because greatness can not be born into a vessel that is unfit for a KING.

TCG

Forget my number

I thought I was over you until I saw a photo, a photo of you claiming her as your property. Having the pride of her being your own glaring from your eyes, the pride that you never had for me. It doesn't hurt as much as it shocked me to see that you actually claim another human being. I always thought you'd wait for me or I thought you wanted to wait for me, with your random calls in the middle of my life to "check on" me, acting so friendly. I just found it very funny that you committed to the girl that was suppose to be a nobody to you. But you can't help but to call me for a life update on me whenever you need my energy But you her sitting next to you like your Queen to be Seems like everyone knew but me I leave the country and you decided to grow up on me. Stirring up emotions that I thought left out of me years ago Having me feeling a tad bit crazy but that's the life you chose after me, which is fine but please don't contact me on my hotline TCG

What do you want me to do?

I hated when you went missing on me, felt like our love was disconnected because you spent your portion of the bill money on more important things than the woman who you wanted to be your wife. Felt as if i was a nuisance instead of a prize because when I looked into your eyes, I saw something that I thought I'd never see ......... You giving up on me, giving up on us because we hit a rough patch in our love. You thought everything was going to be sunny days of pure bliss, but in reality that's all a myth. Real love takes hard work and sacrifice, crazy fights, and long nights of arguing but early mornings of making love until everything is right. I let you walk away because, I wanted you to be free and happy, even if that meant you weren't with me. I saw you switching up on me, changing phone lock codes on me, looking over your shoulder when you texting, finding any little reason to leave the house if we had a disagreement. Changes in our spiritual connection, I felt you steadily pulling away from me, lying to my face, pretending that everything was gravy. Stopped answering my calls, hitting me back with a text message. You abandoned us because times got hard, you walked away and left your key, Now you expect me to be all happy because you realized that what's in those streets isn't better than me. You want me to be the bigger person because you were blind that a real woman was in your life wanting to give you an eternity is happiness and beautiful babies? You want me to try again because you realized you need me? Wanting me to practice forgiveness, when this could have been our dynasty. TCG

A letter to my King (My Husband to be)

I hope this reaches you, wherever that you may be. My sole purpose in life is to make you happy. I dream of you and how things would be if we shared our lives for an eternity. Would you laugh at my corny jokes and understand my silly ways; would you caress my natural after a long trying day. I wonder if my mood swings and attitude will push you away or would handle any curve ball I throw your way? Know that I am constantly changing, God is purging me for our destiny, shaping me for the the better, preparing me for the latter, crafting me to be your wife. I will encourage you to be the very best you when times get hard; be by your side for support when you need assistance walking on our journey, pick you up if you ever should stumble or fall. I have been called to be yours and I take pride in that. Until our two pathes meet, until our hearts align and our souls are complete, I'll be waiting for you patiently; growing and learning to be what you need me to be. TCG

All work and All play

When we are out in public, I'm presentable and classy, but when I get home I love to make it nasty. Text messages and phone calls through out the day turns into sexting and video messages because you want to see what color panties I wore to work that day. Lunch time visits, smiling and greeting everyone in my building but soon as we reach my office, you shut the door and close the blinds and I already know it's go time. Eating my pussy out on my desk, ripping the buttons on my blouse so you can have access to my breast when you slide deep inside, covering my mouth with the other hand to muffle the sounds. Get me all cleaned up once once you cum; Grabbing me a new blouse out of my wardrobe because this is normal for our lunch dates. Whispering to me there is more where that came from later as I walk you to the evaluator. Texting me the address for with dinner with your boss at 8 and I glady agree because I have some tricks up my sleeve. Dinner with your boss and colleagues, I showed up dressed so elegantly but sexy enough to drive you crazy. You can't stop squeezing my ass as I sit by your side at the table, texting me your ass looks like a ripe Georgia peach in this outfit and I'm planning to eat. I text back, check your blazer pocket if you dare. I wore my vibrating panties and i slipped the wireless remote is in there. Turn it on and watch me not break as sweat, I bet you won't do it unless you are that freaky. Your boss thinks we are such love birds as we kiss and whisper in each other's ears, little does he know I'm cumming and telling you the things I'm doing to you once we get to the car, I whisper baby I'm about to be your porn star as soon as you get the check ......... You tell your boss we have to get going, it's getting late and I have a early day in the morning, all lies because you want me to swallow your dick as soon as possible. You pay the tab and grab our coats, because you have cover my ass because it's soaked. The valet barely pulls the car around and we are standing out front, tonguing each other down. Soon as you get in the car, I pull your dick out so that I can taste my dessert before we make it home. Struggling to open the door to the house because you are already got the head inside. Fuck the door, we can get it on the patio so the neighbors can see how to keep your man happy.

TCG

Can you?

*The song Creep Inn by Ideal inspired this poem*

Can you meet me 3 hours away unexpectedly? At a secret place, just you and me? We can hide away from the world and discover each other's intimacy, exploring the opportunity to be more than just friendly. Can you afford to disappear for a week, in a country where we'd have to pay for a translator to speak? To learn each other and learn another culture simultaneously? Is it to much for us to hold hands walking down the street, sharing our future endeavors and facilitating what could be? Would you be willing to pack up your belongings and run away with me for a lifetime of happiness and prosperity, become one as a family, buy our dream home in different country worlds away from what we know and build our dynasty? Are you willing to walk away from what you know, to walk into the unknown with your Queen? Do you trust that you would more than thrive with me? Let's explore the world as one, never letting our love grow cold, promising to spread our love across the globe. We are limitless in this life, so let the adventure begin, I just need to know are you willing?

TCG

What a Man?!

Why chase a boy for anything He isn't ready for a challenge or to face adversity He smells of his mother's breast milk and Hennessey Ready to latch onto your nipple if you give him the opportunity You can't help who you love the say because love is a natural thing But I say can you help who you become a fool for and stop blaming love as the outcome of your situation A man doesn't need chasing because he chases you He knows what he needs and sees it when he sees you He isn't afraid of change because he wants to change for you A man's manhood isn't determined by how many women he has allowed himself to sleep with, that's child's play It's determined by how many times he has allowed himself to love another Human being as much as he has loved himself. His willingness to give and provide for someone other than himself, to build up the community around him without effort or threats The beauty of a real man is ability to build up any woman or lend her a helping hand without any intentions of gaining any rewards or repayment plans. Being able to help someone else that is in need or providing a kind gesture because that's in his personality So don't entertain these little boys in grown men's clothing Stop allowing yourself to be a mother figure to a boy who should be a man Stop giving of yourself to boost a little boy's ego because a real man's ego is stable without your reassurance or knowing what color your panties are at the end of the night If he allows what that mouf do to pass his lips to you, you politely turn around and switch your hips of his playground with his childish ways Because you deserve better than some part time minimum wage of a man Because there a grown men out there But you have to take your time to see Stand your ground and enjoy being free Because a real man is worth waiting for, because suffering from the hands of a child is tragedy.

Final Round of Applause

Finally saw the light, Thanks for helping me get to where I need to be and showing me that my love NEVER meant a thing to you. Thanks for the pain you caused because it molded me into the woman I am today. Thank you for the blunt disrespect and unsupportive actions that you stood behind because your pride is what keeps you warm at night. Thank you for throwing our friendship away because I was still holding onto the old raggedy thing, hoping that we could be tight like we use to be. Thanks for showing me how much of a dummy I was falling in love with a guy who partially loved me, if you ever loved me at all. The thing that drives me insane is how I could see past your flaws and love you no matter what, kept caring for someone who obviously doesn't give a damn about me. Even after all this time and after all the things you subjected me to, I still could say I genuinely care for you but that ends today. I have to walk away and take my love with me and give it to someone who will appreciate me for all I do and what I stand for. I have to keep on pressing on and not dare look behind me because I'll trip up and miss my destiny. I was questioning whether or not was I ready to say goodbye but au revoirs are in order. Time to let us die and no resurrections are allowed. I can still smile because I'm glad it happened but that's all I can give credit for. No more tears for you and well wishing that you miss me too because I'm tired of still playing the fool to something that obviously didn't work. You didn't deserve me and you'll never have a woman as great as me because I'm a once in a lifetime chance of pure happiness and I almost let you ruin me. Bitterness and depression was chasing me down but I found me strength to keep running my race to the fullest. So thank you once again for everything that you did but this will be the last acknowledged performance on the stage of my life, so take your final bow.