Eviction Notice

Cut this out of me This passion must go I’m evicting dhat ass, your love don’t live here no mo Pack ya shit Out the door No need to explain what you’re moving out for Give me the keys to my heart Better yet keep them; I’m changing the fucking locks Because this shit here must stop I can’t keep living with this love this ain’t Bob Marley It has taken a toll on me but for what Just so you could be sorry? To give me hope in a dream of you and me To one day start our own family To live a beautiful life and to be happy? But you are scared of the possibility of what we could be Because I am the one that truly makes you happy But if you can’t believe in me like I believe in you Then you must go and find something new If the best of me isn’t enough for you Oh well your loss and all of that is cool But with that you got to get the fuck up out my heart I don’t mean to be rude This is more for me than it is for you Chenel

I want you

Only if you could comprehend the passion that I feel for you, you would understand that there is no way that I could just be your friend. The fact that I day dream about you constantly and I wonder about your ever move not on no stalker tip just that I am simply into you. When there is something you desire that much you learn everything you can so that you are better equipped to understand what it is that makes that one thing so unique to you. That is what motivates me to get to know you. What makes you happy, what makes you sad? What type of underwear do you prefer your woman wear in your bed if any at all? I want know everything even if it is big or small but it is getting to the core elements of you so I don't mind at all because I feed off the energy you give to me. I want to know what level of intimacy to take on with you because I what to get to know you, I want to be close to you, dance with your soul, figure out why you it's you that infatuates my soul, my mind, and my loins. I want to know why I want you and only you to have me in this way, to be my fulfillment and my joy that I share with the world that you drive me crazy with compassion that it leaks through my pores that I got to have you in my life no other way will do. The simple fact is that I want you

God forgive me, I don't mean to question you

Is this what I have been praying for this whole time? Is this what I've been needing? God after all this frustration, is this what I've been seeking? I pray for your forgiveness and not for my own understanding. You wouldn't put more on me than I can bare but what is he to me. Would you let me feel what greatness feels like to head back to pain? Expose me to real and never be the same. Let us cross paths just to help one another in these trying times? I'm in a dark place as is he but is it real between us or just a fantasy? You said this that come from sin can't not succeed but Lord I ask you, can you make this exception for me? For us, I believe this us more than just lust. But I ask this of you but at the end of it all, I sure am blessed to have experienced this than not at all

Time for a change

Things have changed for the better and everything feels right
The standard has been set for what I deserve to have in my life
Every piece of me has been ignited with passion and I feel like a woman again
Me accepting crap from a man is no longer existing
I've been treated like royalty and I refuse to go back to how I use to live

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!

I get excited when you wear nothing but basketball shorts to bed
Gives me the urge to explore your body with my hands
And discover what makes you a man
Can I hold you real tight in my arms , I want you next to me but yet I want you on top of me
The smell of your cologne dances in my nose, your scent makes me lose control of my thoughts and do somethings to you with my imagination.
I can't help myself but can you blame me? You turn me on and I can't stand it when I can't have you. Boy this is not a game I will pounce on you. Let me wrap my body onto yours and you can have me because I am yours

He who hurt me

He hurt my spirit and tortured my soul, yet I loved him with all of me and in return he turned me cold. All the signs were there from the beginning but I tried to make it work because I loved him. That type of love that I would go to the end of the earth for him, if he needed a piece of me it was his to have but he never understood that I loved him more then words could express. All I ever wanted was for him to feel the same and let the love flow through him. He never realized the passion that lived inside of me for him, the pure desire of him being near me ......... I thought he was the air in my lungs and the heart in my chest but that day came when what I had wasn't the best for him and what he wanted to do with himself anymore. I was no longer the love of his life or his soul mate. He couldn't even look me in my in when we were face to face, letting those bullets shoot out of his mouth into my chest like killing me softly with no soft in it. He murdered my heart because I knew it was lies, crushed my mind a million times but he walked away without a scratch or a bruise, didn't even extend a helping hand moved on with his life like we never happened, like i never existed. I never moved on,letting him always have his place back in my world, hoping he would change his mind and he did but it changed severe times and a piece of me died with every turn. Demanding all of me but claiming he never did, opening up my heart again but never really wanted it, and looking of him to love me like i needed to be loved and it never happened. A scared little boy running from me, running from my love ......... Like I was the Black plague or the Human Immunodeficiency Virus bug. Love had broken me, he had broken me and i still never understood how I can't live without him but he live without me.

Next to me

You want him to rub you down but you can't cross the line. Feeling his hand running down your spine
You want to be touched, feel like a woman again but then again you can't let him in nor get close to you
But this is what you are suppose to do
This is a law of nature, he is suppose to be attracted to you
You want things to get intense so you can have your way but if you do things might not go your way. Sex to soon could kill his interest or show you that he was only after one thing but you have desires too, so why not give in? Why not chose to have what you already been feeling nd touching on through his short. But the question is can he handle you the way you long 4? Is it a one night stand or is he on for the long haul? Can he last for hours or it b a minute man? When was the last time he tested because his dick ain't worth it. Mayb you should stop debating with yourself and speak your mind because you deserve to know what he is all about

P.S.

I have a couple poems I need to complete, they are pretty damn great too LOL alright alright I'm done for now =]

Hmmmmmmmm

Just up doing some late night thinking. My body is restless and this is the perfect opportunity to free my mind, think in a higher mind state if that is what you wanna call it. Right now I am wondering about people in my life. I know you aren't suppose to question God's plan for your like and the things that develop around you but I just wonder when some of the people that are entering my life are going to become permanent fixtures in my life. I know that all people that enter your life aren't good to you or good for you but when do the people that are suppose to be in your life for the rest of your make themselves known? So me as the kind hearted person I am can know when to love them, to appreciate them, and not waste feelings on seasonal people. I got people that I've grown to love and been there for through the thick of things but yet they are useless to me and the direction I am going in with my life. I've wasted some much time, energy, and love on wasteful people. I have some much love that I want to give and ready to give but I am scared. I don't ever want to hurt ever again in the bases of so called love. I want love to feel great again not a pain