He who hurt me

He hurt my spirit and tortured my soul, yet I loved him with all of me and in return he turned me cold. All the signs were there from the beginning but I tried to make it work because I loved him. That type of love that I would go to the end of the earth for him, if he needed a piece of me it was his to have but he never understood that I loved him more then words could express. All I ever wanted was for him to feel the same and let the love flow through him. He never realized the passion that lived inside of me for him, the pure desire of him being near me ......... I thought he was the air in my lungs and the heart in my chest but that day came when what I had wasn't the best for him and what he wanted to do with himself anymore. I was no longer the love of his life or his soul mate. He couldn't even look me in my in when we were face to face, letting those bullets shoot out of his mouth into my chest like killing me softly with no soft in it. He murdered my heart because I knew it was lies, crushed my mind a million times but he walked away without a scratch or a bruise, didn't even extend a helping hand moved on with his life like we never happened, like i never existed. I never moved on,letting him always have his place back in my world, hoping he would change his mind and he did but it changed severe times and a piece of me died with every turn. Demanding all of me but claiming he never did, opening up my heart again but never really wanted it, and looking of him to love me like i needed to be loved and it never happened. A scared little boy running from me, running from my love ......... Like I was the Black plague or the Human Immunodeficiency Virus bug. Love had broken me, he had broken me and i still never understood how I can't live without him but he live without me.

Next to me

You want him to rub you down but you can't cross the line. Feeling his hand running down your spine
You want to be touched, feel like a woman again but then again you can't let him in nor get close to you
But this is what you are suppose to do
This is a law of nature, he is suppose to be attracted to you
You want things to get intense so you can have your way but if you do things might not go your way. Sex to soon could kill his interest or show you that he was only after one thing but you have desires too, so why not give in? Why not chose to have what you already been feeling nd touching on through his short. But the question is can he handle you the way you long 4? Is it a one night stand or is he on for the long haul? Can he last for hours or it b a minute man? When was the last time he tested because his dick ain't worth it. Mayb you should stop debating with yourself and speak your mind because you deserve to know what he is all about

P.S.

I have a couple poems I need to complete, they are pretty damn great too LOL alright alright I'm done for now =]

Hmmmmmmmm

Just up doing some late night thinking. My body is restless and this is the perfect opportunity to free my mind, think in a higher mind state if that is what you wanna call it. Right now I am wondering about people in my life. I know you aren't suppose to question God's plan for your like and the things that develop around you but I just wonder when some of the people that are entering my life are going to become permanent fixtures in my life. I know that all people that enter your life aren't good to you or good for you but when do the people that are suppose to be in your life for the rest of your make themselves known? So me as the kind hearted person I am can know when to love them, to appreciate them, and not waste feelings on seasonal people. I got people that I've grown to love and been there for through the thick of things but yet they are useless to me and the direction I am going in with my life. I've wasted some much time, energy, and love on wasteful people. I have some much love that I want to give and ready to give but I am scared. I don't ever want to hurt ever again in the bases of so called love. I want love to feel great again not a pain

I am done

Frustration and dissatisfaction will be the death of me
My heart is falling apart
The battle has won

1:55 am Central Time

I'm ready to fall out off my clothes and touch you with my loins
Caress you with my pride and release my love from within
Can I have my way with you? Because the way I'm thinking, I don't need any restriction
This is not a dream nor a test so lock in and enjoy the ride
The passion is gonna blow your mind once you get inside
Embrace me, feel what I live
Open up to and show me what it is that you have to express
I know you have it in you, show me your best
Let me have what I need from you and I'll give you the rest

TCG

Growing Up

I feel that this process is healthy for me, helping me cleanse myself of my personal demons and focus on the things I need and gather what my heart desires. I hadn't been this passionate about celebrating lent since I was a little girl at Saint James Major LOL
I'm still figuring some things out but I'm making am effort ya know! Job hunting, thinking about my future, expanding my horizons. My gma says the only reason I want to work is so I cam buy shoes nd dresses LOL Part of that is true but I am ready to have my own you know. Well at least work for, grind for it.
My lent plan I am on is pretty good, well pretty great. Has me thinking about alot in my life and what I need to correct and let God's plan for me work for me. Believe me being as head strong as I am, this is kicking my butt lol but I determined to make it! Easter here I come

My heart is full

I just saw Act Of Valor .........
My heart was truthly touched
I am grateful that I will be lacing up my boots in a profession that I love and serving my country and protecting my family, loved ones, friends.
Shouted with moment of joy and cried in moments of pain
I can't wait to start my Army career, it is gonna be one hell of a ride!
Hooah!

Really???

It is obvious to me that you are living your life freely
But can you be man enough to speak truthfully
There is a 2nd tooth brush in ur bathroom that's pink and long strands of hair all over ur sink
Pads nd lashes in your trash can and I know you cant go through a whole roll of toliet paper in a week
Feminite body wash and a body puff are in your shower and none of it's mine and I know you don't use them
Be honest about yours or atleast smarter
I know you have other female friends but damn let me think I'm the only 1
Don't give me that I'm looking for things that aren't there when those things found me in your bathroom nd I was just going to pee
Be sensitive to the fact I have feelings well at least the common courtesy.
And if I ask you a question about what I see then its a straight face lie of those things don't mean anything.
But can I ask you this, if you were me would you put up with this shit?